my reasons for living

i havent written in awhile obviously so here is a catch up on things that have happened. payten turned 1 years old this last month! my little baby is growing up. we had a small birthday party and  opened gifts with my parents the weekend before then had a family thing on her birthday. she got some fun gifts and ate losts of frosting:) mostly frosting not so much cake ha ha shes been walking since 10 and a half months and has gotten better she walks like a little duckie ha ha we actually took her to her one year apt got shots and blood draw(it was horrible) and the doctor said she is slightly bow legged in her right leg but she will grow out of it soon. she says a few words like. mama. dada. papa.bo(our dog) hi. baba. no. and her favorite jake(my husbands name) lol she is so active and fun now. shes so happy all th e time we love our little toddler. paisley was born oct 14th (5 days after paytens birthday. we ended up having to be induced which i would actually do again. it was so much easier on my physically then paytens delivery was. we had an apt set for 8am and checked in with our bags were sent to labor and delivery met our nurse and she set me up with the iv and a pitocin drip. my doctor came in an hr later and broke my water(wierdiest feeling ever! i hated it bc it just wouldnt stop gussing and i wanted to shower so badily bc of it ha ha anyways that really didnt get things going so they upped the pitocin every 30 hr till 1pm when i got my epidural i slept for and hr or two after that and then started throwing up when i woke up i think i threw up a few times and even after i could seem to keep anything down it sucked. i finially got some food when my sweet parent in laws came with a much requested pizza that night:)  anyways back to the birth. at 4 pm the nurse came in and checked me and set up a cathater. sadily my epidural didnt work like it should have and i had feeling in my right leg for awhile. so things were uncomforable but atleast i wasnt feeling those contractions. so much worese with pitocin. no fun i promise.  she said i was only at a 4 and came in an a half hr later to check me i was a 5. about 15 mins later i felt funny down there and wondered if maybe the cathater had come out or something so i called her in to check. she did and said it hadnt moved and was fine then luckly decided to check me again even though she just had. i was at a 9 ! from a 5 to a 9 in 15 mins and they had taken me off the pitocin bc it was makning me sick and i had started progressing by myself early. she said ill get everything to set up for delivery and was gone... i was so shocked i wasnt ready i thought i had time... what was going on!lol she came back in and set up like 5 mins later i was feeling a horrible pressure like she was about to pop out and it started feeling contractions again. was my epidural gone? i pushed the button a million times and nothing it was empty... they called the guy back in and he gave me a numbing (very strong epidural shot thing bc the epiural really wasnt working in the first place very well) it helped but i still felt everything unlike how it was with payten i was numb up untill pushing. she said she was going to have me start pushing before the doctor would come in... well when she had me spread my legs and into the sturps she looked down and her face scared me she then said never mind and im like what? jake looked down there and they said her head was already half out and there was a bunch of dark hair right there! im like are you sure? ha ha they both just looked at me wierd. she ran and got the doctor she put on everything and within 3 pushed she was out. paisley was 8 pounds and 2 oz 19 and a half inches long and born at 530pm. she was beautiful. she is beautiful. they weighed and measured her after they took her away from me and waited for the placenta to deliver... it didnt it wouldnt so my doctor had to manually pull it out it was so painful even with the drugs i cried. we only stayed in the hospital till the next night luckily they let us leave so we could be home with payten that night. we missed her and wanted her to met her little sister. we are getting use to having two little ones... its hard at times but sooooo worth it. i love my little family more then anything. always and forever()