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girl! yippy another girl! ha ha im actually excited i get to have more pink in my life who wouldnt be happy about that?:) payten gets a little sister and all i can think of are girls names anyways. a friend said today that god knows what your family needs in it and how true is that! they pick us and come to live here on earth with us. im excited to met my little angel!

stay a baby forever

 payten is 7 months and a half now... she is reaching sooo many milestones sooo fast that i dont know what to do... my baby is turning into a toddler and i can honestly say i do not like it! i tell her to stop each day but she refuses to. she is crawling and getting into everything! i find her under soo many pieces of furniture hiding from me... she then starts giggling when i get her haha we had to lower the crib all the way down bc she is pulling herself up. within a week of this she started taking steps.... no payten no i think. i know that when this next baby comes i will be sooo glade she is able to get around and walk but shes only 7 months old... not yet please.:( shes growing up way too fast. i remember when she was born and i couldnt beleive this perfect angel they gave me was mine. im not sure if i was in shock from labor ( i was alittle out of it after) or just in awe. i love my baby soo much im scared for the years to come. i want to do right by her and teach her what she needs to know in this world. i want her to know i love her everyday, how beautiful and special she is.

my 23rd birthday.

wow 23... how old! haha im just kidding ... i feel 30 at times in my life i dont know if its because im married with one child and another on the way but thats how old i really feel. i guess i should be thankful im not there yet but 23 is another year closer to it and farther away from 20. dont worry ill get over it. jake was able to get the day off we went to texas road house with payten and she did soooo well.i was so thankful for how good she did. she didnt get into too much and just sat happily eating whatever i gave her and chewing on whatever she could get her hands on. target was next and i got a carpet cleaner! i know i know... not fun but its fun for me when i am able to clean my carpets after my 7 month old decides to barf all over them:) ha ha anyways im 23 now and growing up i guess. so happy late birthday to me. we find out the sex of baby number 2 on monday... i dont know if im excited or nervous. i am excited to see him or her but once we find out the sex we start talking about names and then it just makes this pregnancy more real i dont know if im ready for that. im sooo nervous for when this one comes... paydee will only be 1 and thats if this baby doesnt pop out early. i will live( i hope) haha

Mother's day

I think its important to have a special day to celebrate moms. I know that we should really celebrate them and their amazing jobs each and everyday but sometimes we get so lost in the busy lives we live that we dont stop and thank them or atleast let them know how truely special they are. moms give carry a baby, they give birth, i know from personal experience that labor isnt fun.it is one amazing thing but fun isnt one of them. i am so grateful for moms out there that do it day in and day out. they make their children feel special and watch them grow up. i know that if i am able to watch payten marry a worthy man years (lots) from now and be happy a respectful strong woman in todays world i have done my best and thats gift enough. thank you all moms. grandmas. future moms out there. you have changed lives.

i feel my saviors love.

tonight i had the chance to rock payten to sleep if you know my parenting style this isnt normal bc i  do my own version of the baby wise. which i love we have a list of things we do each night so she become used to going to bed on her own. i didnt start it till 4 months and ever sense i have she will sleep 10 + hrs a night normally 12 and has a 1hr nap and a 30 min nap during the day. i try to keep everything around the same time and ive notived if i go off too much she doesnt sleep well. we take a nap at 4 wake up eat baby food. play take a bath lotion up get her into her pjs.read a book or two then cuddle for an hour or so i fed her wrap her up and off to bed still awake she sometimes whins for a mintue or two but 90 percent of the time shes out within 5 mins and sleeps so well. shes in bed by 8 normally tonight it was 9pm but we were out tonight getting food. tonight i felt like i needed to wrap her up and just rock her to sleep in her room with the lights off. i didnt realize it but i started singing to her i feel my saviors love the love he truley gives me his spirit warms my soul through everything i see. etc. i love that song but its not one of my favorite hyms so im not sure how i knew all the words. she just looked into my eyes for awhile then slowly drifted off.i love my daughter with all my heart she truley is my everything. i would give my life for her.i had the chance last night to read a few of the general conference talks for last month. after i put payten to bed i thought of one that talked about becoming as a child how close to god they are. how innocent. i feel so blessed that he intrusted this heavenly being in my care. she is so close to our heavenly father she is only 7 months old what did she experience only a year ago? i feel my saviors love when i hold my child and she looks into my eyes so dearly.