stinky poo poo

its so fun having a toddler. she makes me smile and half crazed all at the same time. ive come to realize our house from now on will always be one big mess no matter how much i clean it. i clean up something she gets into something else i clean that up she gets into something else... its a circle. haha so ... More kids? one day... not right now i dont beleive i could handle it i mean i only have two hands in while is holding a baby the other is doing something else. payten is getting so big i cant even imagion her getting anymore grown up which will happen im just not ready for it. she randomly says and does stuff that im just laughing at all day... then think where the heck did that come from ive never done that. today it was wheewwww she ran up to me with no pants on and grapping at her diaper waving her hand infront of her nose says whewwww. i asked if she need her diaper changed .... she ran into her room and pointed to the wippy box she then layed down for me to change her... im just in amazment. i know every parents just thinks their kids are soooooo smart. i guess im just like everybody else then haha

what are you doing ??

i decided to start the hcg diet last week. so far so great im starting to feel more like myself. why would you do that some people probably think. well its pretty simple i have 50 pounds i need to lose i felt overwhelmed doing it by myself and needed help and my hormones are all messed up so this is kinda a last resort. i want to like what see in the miror.

it is what it is

days go by too fast

i remember our wedding day. i remember planning payten. i remember having her(and how much it hurt) then finding out i was pregnant with paisley. i remember having her... now payten is 16 months and paisley is 4 months... i cant stand it. they are growing up to fast. i remember with payten i wanted her to reach milestones so fast each on then the next. she rolled at 2 months. crawled at 6 and walked right before 10... too fast. she talks now, some words clearer then others. she gives paisley hugs and kisses and says HI SISSER! she will give her sips of her milk bottle. she will take wipes and try to wipe her face. i love my little helper. she started getting diapers for me to change her. i know potty training is around the corner which i same nervous for. not having her in diapers would financialy be great for us though having two in them now is expensive! paisley is getting big herself ive been having trouble breastfeeding(isnt that always the issue) but luckly with the great support of friends i talked myself into not giving up just yet. i bought a nice(way tooo expensive) pump and tommee tippee bottles because she had nipple confusion.working on my supply and breastfeeding her everyday/allday. but its worth it. i love the relationship i have with her because of it. i feel good about being able to feed my baby naturally. payten was formula fed because breastfeeding never worked with her. i dont know how long i will be able to feed paisley but its already better then i did with payten so maybe with my next it will be even longer and so on. lets hope for the best. this week has been problematic. we have had cows infest our property(we have 4 acres) there were atleast 30 all over our front yard one morning so my husband drove them away with his rino then a few days later they were back eating our(expensive) hay. if you have ever bought hay ... its not cheap! so we were naturally mad! we put up on old (large dog cage) around the big pile of hay so they couldnt get to it. our lab wasnt using it because he just stays anyways. well... at midnight the other day they were back... they woke us up hiding their horns against our house trying to eat some small weeds around it... there were a bunch around the hay and one had broken the door to the cage and stuck his head in there just eating away. we were soooo mad! our neighbors have contacted the lady whos cows they were and complained a MILLION times... but she STILL after months never came and rounded them up putting them back onto her property. my husband called and the next day there she was! i was getting ready for a baby shower and my husband was at work when i heard the dog bark and bark so i looked out the window... there was a beat up truck driving slowly around our house... not on our land... AROUND IN OUR BACK YARD! who the heck does that! i was pissed and wondered who the heck it was and what they heck they thought they were doing... so i walked out side after getting dressed and yelled "CAN I HELP YOU?" she explained who she was and that she was looking for her cows to round up. long story short my husband and the neighbor ended up rounding the cows up and fixing the ladys feence while she gave a million excuses of why they were out in the first place.(for months) no im sorry or anything for them eating a few hundred dollars worth of hay or waking us up at midnight when my husband has to go to work early in the morning. i swear some people dont give a crap about anybody else do they?

coupons coupons everywhere

coupon embarsments

I coupon. THERE i said it! i started couponing... and im alittle embaresed but ive save half of what i was spending on EVERYTHING now! it feels great and if i have to hold up a line for an extra 5 mins then oh well...if i have to spend an hour a week clipping and organizing and another hour making my lists then oh well. judge me. i DONT care anymore:) im proud of myself for saving money each month so i got myself a double jogging stroller with some of that money and we are saving money for a new car for our growing family. the other day i went to safeway and got 5 pom wonderful pom jucies and a box of ceral and paid only 75 cents:) i like that do you? lol i started stockpiling which if you dont know the lingo thats piling things up that you have bought couponing. i love the free stuff its my favorite and ya i dont need a million tooth pastes but what if something happened and we didnt have money we could live off the stockpile for awhile atleast or what if there was a disaster that happened and the stores were all closed .... well my family would have clean teeth while yours had bad breath. you can look at it however you would like but im excited to say i am not embaresed anymore of couponing. judge away people haha ps pictures to come of great couponing trips :)